| Saturday, May 07, 2005
| My Dreams are very important inspiration for some of my paintings. Most notably Asian Hip Hop Cyclops.
|My Dreams are very important inspiration for some of my paintings. Most notably Asian Hip Hop Cyclops. Here you can read my dream blog, from as far back as last February 2005. I try to be as honest as possible when writing my dreams, and not leave anything out, and not add anything when I am not sure of a certain fact. This is the first thing I do in the morning, you can click on my links menu on the right hand corner to get to my actual livejournal dream blog for further updates. Enjoy, and sleep pink.
[Nov. 16th, 200512:54 pm]
I had left my keys in my mustang. My dad had decided to drive me up to wendys to get a frosty and fries. I was really excited to get there, because I am unable to get fries and frostys in prague. on the way up, there was this huge hill with all of these panalac like buildings. they had taco bells, and mcdonalds on like the 5th floor of the buildings, their signs were glowing. we decided to park, and I was walking, when I decided to go into a "boys ranch" hospital, once inside, I acted as if I was sick, and I was put on a bed with 3 or 4 other people. They put an IV in me, and I pulled it out, then they came over again, and put it back in again, there was a small cylinder filled with something, and some of my blood, the nurse was really cute, not hot, but cute, and she was mad that it was still full of medicine, I told her I would pay for it, even though I didn't use it. I wanted to see my dad, but then the doctors all freaked out and said that only one of my veins was working, I held out my arm and showed them that I had a lot of veins in my arms that worked.I wanted to restore a 1966 panel van that my friend had. I went to his house, and there was a guy next door who had smoked a lot of opium, there was a large snake, that he kept toying with. I was in a backyard, except there were windows seperating the backdoors, I would tap on the glass, and the snake would jump at my finger, but I was safe, I just didn't want the crazy guy to see me. Then a dog got the snake, and was carrying it in its mouth into my side of the yard. I was scared of the dog because I didn't think the snake was dead. Then I started thinking about how anyone who had a constrictor should carry a knife, and how it would be hard to stab a contrictor in its neck, because the knife might go through the snake and into the persons neck, I then decided carrying some sort of a snake tranquilizer would be a better idea.The iggy, chi-chi, combo continues. I was at some sort of art opening, where a bunch of musicians were trying to make art, their pieces were really bad. I then went far away, I was driving by myself, and it felt good to be on a trip alone. I got to some sort of cabin by the beach. I went inside, and there were some childrens drawings on a dresser, one drawing had what looked like a scapula in the lower left hand corner, with a green background, it looked as if it had been done with pastels. I was told it was done by chi-chi, or my friend iggy. Then there was some sort of a dance going on outside, and this hot girl who was taller than me wanted to dance with me, we were joking around, and dancing ballrooom style, even thought he music wasn't ballroom at all, I would jump in the air, and come towards her, and then kneel before her, with a rose in my hand. Then I was worried that I wouldn't make the metro back home, but a girl told me I could walk through these tunnels and get the metro back before midnight. There were a bunch of workers in the tunnels and they were all dirty.
[Nov. 11th, 200512:41 pm]
I found a dog with a broken leg in my backyard. I took it into my garage, and thought of ways to try and fix it. The dog was a husky, and was really dirty. I thought that someone should put a website online about how to make a cast for a dog with a broken leg, but then thought it would be a bad idea because you should probably just take your dog to a vet instead.I was driving home from my farm, and there was some sort of a ghost living around the corner to the main exit. Right as I was getting to the exit, the car stalled, so I had to walk back home. as i came over a hill there was a huge field filled with flowers of all kinds. The colors stretched to the horizon, this was strange because it was fall, and kind of chilly outside. as I walked to the driveway, two men in suits approached me, and asked me where m sister lived, they were from some government orgainsation.when I got to the house, the light was on, and my sister and her husband could be seen through venetian blinds getting dressed. when we got inside it appeared that i had been scammed to let them in, and one of them pulled a gun, the man with the gun was quickly subdued by my sisters husband. on the way back home, i started looking at drawings people had made while taking valium. My dad had given an assignment to his students to do drawings while taking valium, even though he didn't take it while he was doing his example drawings.
[Oct. 16th, 200501:26 pm]
I was part of some sort of a horror movie that someone was writing. I was at my farm, and there was an old woman who took me down to the side of the creek. She took off all of her clothes and begin floating through the creek on her back with her legs wide open. Then I realised that she was into voodoo, and she hit me with a rock and held me underwater, but when she came back up she had a knife stuck in the side of her neck. blood began pouring out, and coloring the water all around.I was south of my hometown, where there used to be forest, but now there are endless cookie cutter houses, and suburbs. There was a wedding going on there, it may have been my sisters, the wedding parade was a huge mob of people wearing ski masks, I was in the back of a horse drawn carriage, and as I watched I thought to myself that this was the best wedding I had ever seen. I was in some higher position so I wasn't part of the mob element of the wedding. Everyone was running around culdasacs with broken bits of wood and screaming. There were a bunch of horses rearing up. There was some connection with the horses, one was named Amanda, the other, Fantasy (which is the real name of my horse back home) I read a report about them on the internet on some sort of economics website, my grandpa wanted to look at it, and I told him he didn't need a password to get in.
[Aug. 22nd, 200511:22 am]
It was halloween, and a bunch of friends have gathered in the forest back in my hometown. Somebody had mushrooms, and put them into muffins. I took a bite, but wasn't sure how strong they d be. Everything started getting really strange. Suddenly I was in a mall, walking around out of my head. I go to a Bagel shop, and there are these cute girls working there, I stumble over my words, as I try to order, but then I end up leaving, one girl has red streaks in her hair. I wander around, and there is a large group of guys walking with a guy named dag, they are kind of jocks, and they want me to join their group, I don't really want to, but do for a little bit. Then I go back to the Bagel shop, where the manager is now waiting for me, she gets mad at me, and tells me that I can't hit on the girls that work there, I think to myself that I wasn't rea;;y hitting on the girls, I was just fucked up, but apologize anyway. I go back home, and realise that someone has sold my old car, I m upset about this, I m rummaging through some tapes, and I find an old one called Christmas Rap, I start listening to it on an old walkman, then start shooting hoops by my garage, their may be a game forming, but I leave before it starts, then I m in a field, I m listening to this guy play this huge guitar, my old girlfriend is there, and I want to play it to impress her, but she sits far away from me. I keep on playing, but then everyone starts telling me that I m holding the guitar wrong, I say I ve only been playing for a year even though I ve been playing much longer than that.
[Aug. 14th, 200511:55 am]
I was in a hospoda, ordered some food. it took forever to get there. I wanted to call this girl, because she was in town for a while, then she showed up with this guy. But she was like barely 18. I finally got my food, and it was just a salad in some tupperware, then they brought me the bill and it was 595 krowns, which is way more than it should of cost less. But then I looked at the other ticket, and it had a bunch of drinks and other stuff on it. Then I was in my friends basement room, he had this chute where his mom could send him down toilet paper, and clean towels and stuff directly to his room. Somebody else came over, and I was trying to convince him to hook up with the young girl, then I started talking about stocks, and how if you want to have long term equity it is better to get a younger girl. They seemed swayed by my presentation. Then I decided that they were too lazy to go after her, so I text her myself. We were on the way to some park, when a bunch of people started playing instruments in the metro. I was sitting with the girl, and everyone was playing, the metro was kind of like a high school gym now. Then I went to the bottom level of the metro, and I could hear some king vitamin being played upstairs, so I went back up, and then this guy had a big bag of pasta, but it was all green, I thought it must be some sort of pot pasta.
[Aug. 11th, 200511:12 am]
I started living in this old dalipidated building. There were a lot of guys that all worked there, there were small cabins at the very top, This building was kind a collage of a lot of other buildings, like an entire shanty town on one building, In order to get to my cabin at the very top, I had to climb and jump through all these different strange layers, it was really scary getting up, and I was annoyed that they didn't have an elevator, or normal staircase, I even took a carabean, and tried to fashion some sort of a rope so I wouldn't die in case I fell. Then my first night there, there was some sort of an open mic going on in the cabin next to me, I went into a friends room, and one of my friends from high school kept calling this hot black girl a nigger, so he started getting the shit beat out of him badly, he just kept popping back up, and saying the same things, so I left the room, I didn't want to be seen, not trying to intervene and save him from getting his kicked because I agreed that he deserved it for what he said. Then I had to make my way down the precarious path, and I realised that there was a huge staircase, and half way down there was a shower, and under neath the shower was a hive of bees, they were like jelly looking bees, and I couldn't imagine that they would actually have stingers anymore. i wandered around at the bottom, and then I made my way back up to my cabin, once in my tent, I started realising that the building was haunted, and I was basically having to sleep in a tent on a terrace with no railing, there was a pole coming straight up out of the terrace area, and I went outside in the night and held onto with both of my hands, I imagined myself freaking out and having to fight the ghost, and how I would accidentally fall of the edge, and everyone would think that I just fell, I thought about holding my camera in my hands in order to get a picture of the ghost, the ghost was an old woman in a long flowing dress, then as I was holding onto the pole with both hands I closed m eyes, and as I opened them I could begin to see the sun rising, and as the sun rose, the building became like a ship slowly sliding through the fields, as I watched the orange, and green pastures slide by, I imagined being a captain of a ship, and thought about how nice it must have been to wake up on a boat on the ocean and see the sun rise. I then made my way down the building, and took a bus into Prague, except Prague was a metropolis, and looked more like chicago, the city looked beautiful in the morning, I took the bus all the way into this warehouse, and got out, and began walking through some trees, and there I was back at the building, there was a concert going on at the bottom, and all my cigarettes kept breaking, I was with a female friend I had in high school, and I was standing close to the performers, and one of them told me that I should stand farther away because I smelled like oak, then he came to sit down by me, and asked me if I wanted to play some king vitamin, so I asked him if he could make some noise, he said yes, and then I asked him if he had a mic, again he said yes, I decided to do it although I was upset that I didn't have my effects pedal with me.
[Aug. 9th, 200512:19 pm]
I got Dj Tanners number. I had a big portrait on my dry erase board, and I was writing my dreams on it. Trying to convince my friend from high school to move to Prague.
[Aug. 8th, 200511:00 am]
I was at some sort of an outdoor event. everyone there was naked, and there was clouds of red smoke emitting from fires. I was told that this was an ancient behemian ritual. At one point there were various human bones that we were all supposed to eat. The name of the god we were wordhiping was something like satojs. I almost threw up when I saw everyone eating the bones, and ripping the human flesh off of them. Then i was in a house, I lived on the top floor and I had a huge aquarium, that was getting dirtier and dirtier, I tried to clean it, but the water was spilling all over the floor. There were a lot of little fish in it, as well as a big slimy half jelly fish, half squid sort of thing. My roomates came home and were really mad at me because the water was spilling everywhere. Then I was riding a horse at my farm, and over the crest of a hill I saw a huge indian battle, I wasn't sure if it was a re-enactment or not, but there were thousands of indians lined up on opposite sides of the valley, waiting to attack each other, I rode my horse to the top of the hill as fast as I could, and came to fence, I opened these suburban house style doors to pass through the fence, and rode around , but by the time I got down the road, I had to slow down and get off my horse for some reason, then I saw this long line of indians riding back home, it was just a re-enactment, but someone told me that Washington had been killed, this was supposed to mean an indian named washington, not the president. I waited for oppurtunity to cut through the line with my horse, and then I rode home.
[Aug. 6th, 200511:25 am]
I was at some sort of docking area on the coast of prague. It was owned by a friend of mine, but even though she owned the property, it was being used by some sort of government officials, and there was a gate you had to pass through in order to get in. There was some sort of demonstation going on against these huge ships that were releasing testosterone into the water, there were two guys with a huge banner, some normal girl wandered up, and started talking to me, she thought the protestors were being pretty extreme, I told her that's its not a good idea to confront the protestors here, and then I said that its a bad idea to mess with animal rights protestors, she said that she agrees with the cause but she had never worn a bear suit to a protest, i suddenly realised that I was wearing a bear suit, then as night came I was there with my dad, and it was the fourth of july, there was a guy inside a box shooting off some sort of roman candle, I went to the store to buy some normal fireworks, the type that just pop and come on a long string, I unravelled the string of fireworks, and held one in my hand as it got darker and darker, it seemed that everyone was waiting to blow off their big fireworks, and someone was telling me to be quiet, there was a telephone call, and this woman was talking to someone and asking him a list of questions from an email she said that he had the biggest couch in the world, and as she said that this huge couch began flying through the sky, and it went on forever, then she asked what type of games that they play there, and he said bazookie.
[Jul. 31st, 200511:22 am]
A three dream trilogy all about the same girl.I was in this house and this girl had shot some sort of a porn movie there with another girl, my ex girlfriend said she didn't like it that much. for some we had to hide our relationship from everyone, we held each other really close, but wern t allowed to kiss.I told her we should play a game where we didn't kiss. I had a phone that looks like it must have been bought for really cheap, and it was made out of cheap plastic, I played this game where there was one flipper in the corner of the screen and you had to break some brick overhead, then I had a few calls, and it said that they were from yo yo ma, but in reality I knew that they were from this girl. then the other two came over, and I had to hide upstairs. another one of my friends was on the floor listening to smog, i was watching a movie on the bed, the girl i was in love with was downstairs, there was something really trouibling about her, one of my friends had a prescription for bio yogurt, she asked me if I wanted some, I said no, they came into the room, and the big guy gave me a superman thing to crack my back, someone in the other room said that they called them natural man where he was from,
[Jul. 30th, 200511:28 am]
I was skateboarding near my old house where I grew up. I went over this large embankment, and it was nighttime, I had all this weed in my pocket, and I took it to the embassy, there was a huge line there and I thought that it would be a good place to sell it, but no one wanted any, so I left, I started skating, and I was going along this long dark street, there were trees all around, I met someone I knew from school, his mom was my teacher, his sister was in love with me, we went back to their house, he lived in a failed suburb that tried to make all the products and homes all the same, television sets, cuppords, potato chips were all made by this company called "Brando" The woman had a pro-choice magnet on her refrigerator, suddenly they were all sitting on the couch together hugging, and I was kind of an outsider, I told them that I would leave, and they said ok, and I walked to the door, looking back, they were just all hugging each other, and payingno attention to me, so I just walked outside, sad.
[Jul. 18th, 200512:59 pm]
I was up in canada, I had to drive their in some sort of a station wagon that didn't run very well. It looked like the one that my parents had when I was little. Once I got over the border, I went to the house of this girl, she was in love with me, but I had to leave, I kept feeling my passport in my pocket to make sure that it was there. I had an interview with two executive types about my music, there were some czechs there, but they said that they were looking for a band that spoke english. I had to leave, but my station wagon was a two hour drive away so I had to have this girls dad drive me there. I felt independent having my own car.By the way, in case you didn't know I m a painter as well. Some of my paintings have come from my dreams. The most famous being "Asian Hip-Hop Cyclops"view the blog here
[Jun. 10th, 200511:27 am]
I was driving around in my old car, and was very happy to be driving again. I was kind of driving in the center of the road, but felt in control of the vehicle. I had to drive to a school mate's house from grade school to get a guitar. He supposedly stole a baseball card of mine while I was in grade school, but now it seemed as if he had stole a guitar from me. I got the guitar there, and it was a fender stratocaster, and had these nuts you could twist at the bottom of the guitar to tune it. I was driving home, and was excited that I had got the guitar. there was a feeling in the air that I was really famous. Then as I was driving home, I discovered that my parents had arranged to have me abducted. I was furious about this, and my car turned from being a 1981 subaru station wagon, to a small slow moving moped. The hit man was closing in on me, and the motor wasn't strong enough to get up a hill, I started running, but as I felt his hand on my shoulder, I tried to kick, and woke up actually kicking my leg.
[Jun. 1st, 200501:27 pm]
I was at my farm, and there was a large commemoration festival there for my friend mauro who had died. I was inside the house, and everyone seemed normal, but I couldn't stop crying, so I went to the bathroom, I started smoking a bat there, but I was also taking a piss. everyone could see me as I walked to wash my hands (for some reason I didnt pull my pants up) there was a window in the bathroom door. so I started doing funny dances while they all watched, i was glad I was making people laugh on such a sad day. I was then working on making some sort of art piece, it had a woman praying on it, and I was spray painting it gold, but the spray paint was melting the plastic, and it kept melting, and as it melted the woman crouched further, and further down in prayer. it turned into the shape of a hat, and I started wearing it on my head. I was inside a car, overhearing someone talk about how mauro should have been more careful, and I refused to lift my head to even look at them, but then I lifted my head, and looked out the window and saw 8 lights moving in formation in the skies, I immediately jumped out of the car, and all the stars turned into this giant formation that looked like a city at night, glowing, and changing colors and undulating back and forth. the number 44 was mixed in with I showed it to everyone, and stood on what looked to be a small crop circle, but I knew that I had made the crop circle myself, even so I was telling everyone how beautiful it was, and that it was proof of alien existence. Then I started painting this huge painting by myself, it was a large ugly abstract painting that I started to smear with my fingers, one woman said something to me along the line of "well thats one way to do it" then after I was finished I started ripping it apart, and jumping on it, I was full of rage, and one of my friends confronted me about my rage, and I tried to start a fight with him, slapping him in the face, and asking him to fight me, but I was now much taller than he was, and not afraid at all, in the end however we just ended up hugging one another. then I sat down, a lot of the cars had left, and there was this really cute girl sitting next to me, holding my hand, she looked really young, but she was looking at me lovingly, and kissing me on the cheek, she was smoking a cigarette, and I said, you re probably way too young to smoke cigarettes, and she said that she isn't, and that she was 18, her brother was sitting on the right side of me, and he started talking to her, to try and break up our tryst, I told him that he was a good brother to try and keep her aaway from me, then I leaned over and whispered into her ear, that she is so cute, she started laughing, and kissed me, then I asked her how long she would be here, and she told me 13 weeks. that made me feel good. there were speaches now being given by second rate actors, and we just kept listening, someone asked me if I had a ride back home, and I said that I didn't care.
[May. 18th, 200512:17 pm]
I was part of a class that went on a scuba diving trip. While underwater I had to do some drawing. I remember talking about how it was great that I didn't have to talk outloud, because everyone was uderwater. I was in a vast boring looking ocean, the type without many fish, and absolute blackness all around. probably somewhere in the middle of the ocean, and very far down. after getting out of the water, I realised that I had left a pen in my pocket, and it got my jeans all full of ink, and ate holes in my t shirt, just then, I was in an elevator going upstairs to a party, it was a really posh party and I still had my flippers on. I was with Tereza, and she was trying to do all these things with her hair, and had red glitter all over her face, she looked really pretty, and was with another girl with glitter on her face, before going into the party we all got these little blue discs with numbers on them, that would grant us access to the vip area, and some man was asking us to be on our best behavoir, but I was still soaking wet, wearing jeans stained by ink, and a tshirt full of holes, I also never took off my flippers. the elevator reached its destination, and there was a glamourous party going on, Tereza's mom was there, and she was talking to a guy with a lot of tatoos, and a trendy haircut. tereza wasn't there, I was waiting for her, and then I was outside with a large group of people, I was amazed that even though they dressed like snobs that they were actually pretty open people. my dad was there, and he was making a lot of noise, there was a fight nearby, a man with a pink shirt was trying to fight all of these people, and someone threw a drink at my dad, so I hit him in the head, and chased him away, he said that he would kill us when he came back. others said that he was a drug dealer that hangs outside of an art gallery.
[May. 17th, 200512:57 pm]
I was on top of a large podium in some sort of an imprisonment facility. the sides of the podium were lined with newspapers, and I had to hold my hands up so they would be chained to the ceiling with a really shiny lock. I was allowed a lot of accomodations there, one of which was a never ending supply of chewing gum. I thought that I would use the tin foil from the gum wrapper and make a fake lock, then I would look like I was locked up, but I would really be able to break free at any time. I slid down the side of the podium and took al these magazines with me , I slid across the huge floor and left a trail of magazines behind me. I was with one girl, not sure who she was though, all I know is that she let me cuddle up next to her, and she was nice.I had left my car in Fargo, and I was trying to make a plan to go get it. my brother had made a trip to canada for me, and left my car there on his return trip. the whole time I was trying to figure out whether or not I wanted to go. some girls told me that maybe the car would run, maybe it wouldn't. my friends really wanted to go, but I didn t want to have to walk 200 miles so I was unsure. then there was some sort of mafia that wanted to tear down my house, they brought these huge steamrollers, and a tractor with a large scoop shovel on it. they were driving back and forth trying to gather up speed to crash into my house, they were russians, and I started taking pictures of them at close distance, they were taking pictures of my house. they didn't like that I was taking pictures. one of them ceremonially decided to take a shovel and break the concrete driveway with it, and he did, but after he made the hole, it got larger, and he fell into all this water, the ground around him turned into this gooey asphalt, like tar in the summer, and I took my hand (I was like a giant at this point) and smoothed it over where he had fallen in. he suffocated underneath, and all was saved.
[May. 15th, 200512:37 pm]
I was back home once again. I was at my friends guy's house, he lent me his van to drive around. I was a few blocks from my school, and driving back to my house. The van was really big, and had a big bed in the back, I was excited that I could get some girls back there. As I was driving to a four way stop a police officer walked up to the car, and found some pot on the hood of the car. He asked me if I knew someone named Wefald, who was the original owner of the car. I said yes, then he asked me about the pot on the hood, saying "do you know where this came from" I said "no" then I asked him if he kept it, and he said that he had lost the evidence, I was happy and drove away. I was carrying a knife because the locks on the car would only open when you jammed this huge knife into the lock. As I was driving away I figured that some leaves must have fallen from a tree because of the heavy rain and the cop had mistaken it for pot.
[May. 10th, 200512:40 pm]
Watching a police movie. some zombie pops up and says. "Hey zombie" to me.Im in a new gym, and form some sort of new art group. I begin tagging "zig" everywhere. I am amazed that it sounds so much like zig heil. I don't want to be associated with the nazis.I was at a basketball game, and it is some sort of co-ed league. The rules state that you must have at least two girls on the court at all times. before the game I am walking around the campus, and there are all these football players marching in formation, i am amazed how much mlike nazis they look, I see a group of cheerleaders coming, and get scared that they are going to give me some school spirit so I run away. THe game starts, and for a period of time I run onto the court, and try to play , I am just wearing my normal clothes, but something goes wrong, and all the players go somewhere. The game gets called because there is a fight between two of my friends. I am leaving the game and I run into my friend Pavla, she is getting into a car that is totally packed. I need a ride home, but there is obviously no room in the car. they wave to me as they drive away. I am wandering around aimlessly when I see this car moving sporadically. it's turning in cirles, and runs into a nice old mercedes. I open the passenger door, and mamage to jump into it. I try to start driving it, but it's like the car is possesed, I manage to drive it out of the capus area where the game was taking place, and stop on the street. right as I stop there is a tow truck that pulls up in front of me, a guy gets out, and says he's from the lot where the car went crazy and drove off by itself, apparently not the first time its happened. after loading up the car, I ride back witht hem to the lot, they are listening to a radio version of unsolved mysteries inside the dealership there are a lot of workers. I meet the head dealer guy there, and he is grateful that I had commondeered the car, I want some kind of reward but there is none. He telles me that the last time the car went crazy and drove away they found a cigarette in the ashtray. This is supposed to sound really eerie, because there was no one in the car, then he reveals once again that they found a cigarette again in the ashtray. He asks me if Ii smoke, and I say yes, and then he offers me a cigarette. he says he is going to start selling marijuana to make more money, i think if i should tell him where to buy some, but decide against it. I am then with some girl walking through the dealership whcich looks a lot more like a type of chop shop, people are welding all around me, and then I realise that there is some sort of poison gas inside the car, and that if you light a fire anywhere near it the car will explode, I run upstairs where they are working on the car to warn them, when I come into the room, there are a lot of workers welding already. they are listening to unsolved mysteries.
[May. 9th, 200512:01 pm]
I had a performance at roxy, and I did a soundcheck and was very happy with the quality of the sound, bu then I realised that I would be on a much smaller stage. I went to the house I grew up in and decided to have a concert there, it s tarted very late, around 11:30 and I had to ride my bike home while carrying my amp, I was trying to hook up all these different devices and I couldn't find one cord, I got this crappy old keyboard and ended up playing a really ambient set. My dad was there, and he seemed to like it, my uncle fell asleep. I was talking with an old man, and my ex girlfriend andrea, we were asking about my old house by the post office. I asked her if our landlord was still alive, there was no answer. I went to the house, and it was abandoned, a friend asked me how much it was to rent and I said it was 750 dollars a month. I started building a crazy set up in my backyard to make soud, I had these old car speakers, that weere very difficult to hook up into my system. I decided to go inside, and make a studio in the basement. before I went downstairs I went into the tv room, my mom came in, she was really tired, I started crying that I couldn t make her happy, I went into the bathroom for refuge, and the toilet bowl started overflowing, little bits of shit started to pour over the edges, I grabbed the plunger, and pluged away, fixing it, then I went downstairs, and found out that I had an old computer downstairs, I thought that I should bring the computer back to prague, the screen had been left on for over a year, and there was some text on it, a story about bubblegum, to my right was a giant spill of color, it was like some sort of multicolored foam, I yanked on the edge of it, and oulled off a large chunk, there was a also a page torn out from a porno magazine, and a sculpture of a womans ass covered in mud. I felt good to be home, and I knew that I could become legal if I sstayed in america for a while was outside climbing up this big hill of mud with this girl, I had some sound equipment with me. as I was climbing I noticed this guy sitting down widdling, his job was like a watchman throughout the winter at this cabin, the cabin was very crude, and the girl was amazed that his only source of warmth was this old giant gear that he would make fires on, the cabin had a huge basement, and half of the floor was falling down. I thought to myslef that I would not be able to live there because I would be scared. when I returned to the outside of the cabin I saw this bear, it started running at me, at first I tried to run away from it, but it caught up with me, then I tried to run back into the cabin, but the bear made it into the cabin, I snuck out the door, and the bear was up on its hind legs pressing up against the wodden frame of the door, I took a .32 handgun from my waistline, I shot the bear a few times through the door, once in the head, then I opened the door, and he just kind of walked slowly out. It was my birthday, and I was at a movie theatre, there were these old mafia looking guys who didn t like the film. I was caryying a .32 handgun. I went into the worng bathroom. The movie was really crazy, and there was a scene where people were flying over the sydney opera house, then there was this psychotic chipmunk who made these insane noises. the movie really freaked me out, but it was as if I was watching as well as playing the lead roles.
[May. 5th, 200511:25 am]
There was a hostel in flagstaff arizona, I was on some sort of a cross country trip with my mom. There was a huge dog that guarded the place that barked all the time. It would jump over this huge security fence that guarded the place. I shot the dog in the leg, and his body got really big, and he looked like the ice creature from the empire strikes back, and started making weird gurgling noises. There was a curfew, and at 9:30 everyone had to turn off their lights, but there was also this weird club in the basement that was more like a large dining hall. My ex girlfriend Andrea made a painting of "pink" the stuffed animal that I sleep with, and I missed her a lot, also there was my ex girlfriend cricket who had made a portfolio, and was hanging out with a bunch of snobby art people,she said that she would start promoting my artwork and that if anyone needed a strage black and white film she would suggest me, a band started playing, and a really cute black girl with pigtails was the lead singer, there was something wrong with the sound, so i decided to sneak upstairs to take a piss with some other guys I had just met, there was the tip of someones penis in the urinal, but I just kept pissing into it, when i got back downstairs, My girl Tereza arrived, and she was wearing this shirt that showed off her stomach, some guy spread honey on it, and I licked it off, a guy across the way started throwing food all around, and I wanted to kill him, but I didn't want tereza, or andrea see me kill someone so i didn't do anything. i was sitting next to my old friend from grade school, jesse, and as we talked, we began to realise that the beligerant kid wasnt talking, but instead he was a mime of sorts. He suddenly got this huge bottle of water he was drinking from, and my girlfriend said something about drinking him up.my mom wanted to sleep in the car, and I felt bad that i got to sleep in a bed, and she had to stay outside. I was up on this cliff and a cute girl also threw me a piece of candy from a far distance, I caught it, and held it up for her to see, then I unwrapped the candy, and split it with a nother girl who was sitting next to me, my sister suddenly appeared, and said that she wished she had more time for her vacation.
[Apr. 27th, 200512:15 pm]
Big concert, we were opening for Motley Crue. There was a lot of people in the audience, I didn't get to play what I wanted to because everyone kept talking, and I was with a large band, we were playing in minot, there was a stag party there, they all had colored wigs, we did a hip hop song, and war pigs by black sabbath, but I always seemed to be left out. My mic cord didn't reach all the way so i couldn't be up on stage, it kept getting wrapped around the speakers and stuff. at one point I was growling on the ground, and this goth girl came up to me and asked me if I wanted to huff some duster, everyone was sitting down by the end, and I never heard any applause at all. Someone kicked a soccer ball at me, and trapped it, but when I tried to kick it back into the audience i ended up just kicking it under some table slowly. I felt like the concert was a failure, and couldn't believe how bad it was. Towards the end a small kid grabbed my calf so I grabbed his hand hard and tried to hurt him, he was probably around 9 years old, he was with his mom and she made him let go of me, saying that it wasn't a good idea to do that to me. he let go, and asked if we had a video tape of the performance, I said yes, so he said "so its more like an installation now" I said "I guesss so"
[Apr. 26th, 200505:32 pm]
I was in the crowd of some sort of a performance, and there was a guy behind me who was going crazy because of some girl. I was scared of him, I didn't want him to come near me, so I just kind of scooted forward amongst the other people. I was receiving all these emails on my cell phone that were adertisements for websites. one of them was a forwarded personal ad from andrew, it said, we have a saja, yes a saja, and there were two pictures of this really hot girl in a bikini on a beach. I thought it was funny the way he wrote the messsage, and the way that it soundded just like how he spoke. My german friend kris was watching me while I was texting, he said he knew a guy from the lyme academy, I said that was funny because I was intending on e mailing them about an art tour I was arranging.
[Apr. 25th, 200512:02 pm]
There was a large dilapidated barn in a forest. i wanted to fix it up and turn it into a hostel. The top floor was falling down. I was worried that I would be scared to sleep there because it looked really scary. Somebody put a baby on a gambling table. THere was a large soccer game, and it was taking me forever to get to the game. I had to drive there with my friend guy, and he tried to take a shortcut around the side alleyway where there was a lot of graffiti, the shortcut didn't work, once I got to the game I was missing one piece of my uniform, so I couldn't start playing right away, but I really wanted to play, after I had watched for a while, I just jumped over the line, threw my hands up, and stopped a throw in, everyone looked at each other, but then the woman was counting how many people were allowed on the field, and the other team didn't have enough players, so it was legal for me to be out there, I started running as fast as I could, I didn't even know what position I was playing, I just wanted to score, There were a few chances but my center came up short, and resulted in a corner kick, I was running by the goalie, and shit talking when I woke up kicking my wall.
[Apr. 15th, 200503:05 am]
Wooden people with movable arms fall into cobwebs, and remain precariously upside down in various postions.
[Apr. 14th, 200511:56 am]
I had some paintings, but I hadn't made them, but they were really beautiful, the guy had used modeling paste to build up texture. They were multicolored abstracts, much like the ones that a guy I used to work with would make. There was a competition underwater in racing. My dad was on my team, and we were bowling. It was the olympics or something. I went underwater in this huge spaceship looking thing, and when I was near the bottom there were all these little fish that worked together to act like a giant brain. they slowed me down and scared me a little bit. I fell in love with this girl, who in reality is my girlfriend's best friend, and the ex girlfriend of my good friend. I was trying to hug her, but she wasn't into me at all, I told her that I won a medal, but she wasn't impressed. Finally she started to hug me, but she was also crying at the same time. There was a race with some other girl that I loved underwater, she had a small boat that skimmed on top the water, in the race you could use any craft or way of getting across the water. There were five people holding hands who were swimming all at the same time, they didn't win, but it was cool to watch them all move together.
[Apr. 13th, 200502:59 pm]
I was in school again. There was a test, and I had just found out that I was supposed to do an independent study with my art teacher in order to graduate. I was very worried that my parents would get angry with me if I didn't graduate on time. I was running around school on the very last days trying to figure out how, and what I could do to fulfill the requirements. The art teacher said I was the best student in the class, so I felt like there was some hope. I also got a really square mobil phone, with a mic for recording, and a camera. There was some girl, way too young who was in love with me. I had to spend the night at her house and watch tv, but after we both fell asleep on the bed I decided to go into the other room, and watch some tv. The television woke up an older girl who was sleeping in this room. She got up, her hair all messy, and walked off, i was kind of bummed because she was really cute.
[Apr. 12th, 200512:47 pm]
Again I was at school. There were some tests thta needed to be finished. There was a sort of talent show there, and I was entered in it to win a poetry contest. The prize was 2000 dollars so a lot of people wanted to get it. I had a long cape. When it came my turn to perform, I felt like I was having a bad performance, and nobody was really reacting that much. I waited in the audience afterward, and start talking to my girlfriend, then it was time for class to begin. I wsa in class, and there was a trip to some small town, while in class I confronted my girlfriend about having another boyfriend, and she started telling me about how every time that she texts him she writes it down on paper first, just to make sure there's no mistakes, she then asked me if I wanted to see the paper. I said no, and then we were all going down the hallways very quickly becasue we needed to get to the parking lot. I asked how long it would take to get our destination, ans somebody told me something about a spider wearing a hat with nothing in it. there was a poem that accompanied it. you see a spider with a hat, now that's something, but he takes off his hat and there is nothing. I was also transporting a large canvas back to my house, it had a large blue cross on it, and a spider taking off his hat. I set it up in my kitchen up against the sink, it looked as if perhaps the cross was made of tape or plastic wrap. Field trip from school, and we were down by a lake or river, people were throwing stones that were skipping, and her boyfriend was there, and she just acted like she didn't see him. I started talking about how it was fine, I just got with some other girl last weekend. And this made her angry. I had another girls name written on my hand. Then I took her into my arms, and was holding her, and we were both laughing. Everyone was looking at us, and they all knew what was going on.
[Apr. 11th, 200512:39 pm]
I was in a bed at my old house. there was some sort of secret society that was questioning whether or not to let me join. I really liked this girl, adn wanted to cuddle with her on a bed, but all these people kept coming into the room and getting in my way. Finally we were all watching a movie on a bed, and she started cuddling withthis guy beside me, but he didn't want her, so he asked me if I wanted to trade positions with him. so I did. Outside there was some sort of a case concerning some kid who got stepped on during a film. Since he was part of the secret order, it was their duty to defend him.
[Apr. 9th, 200501:03 pm]
A house taken over by a bunch of punks gets blown up by government agents. I was walking outside, it was a sort of shack, but looked very nice inside. Outside there was a huge garden that I had to jump strategically through in order not to hurt any of the plants. When I was looking out of a window I could see the government soldiers coming, at first they just fired shots into the building. I jumped out of the window, and began running through the garden, only to see on an elevated road behind it, a man, with a rocket launcher fire a rocket into the house, completely destroying it.
[Apr. 8th, 200511:33 am]
There was a huge complex of metro stations, and I was trying to get back home, but I couldnt figure out whre to find the correct train, I ended up taking one that went to the country, and then I was driving a car through the fields, and I saw this woman in a bikini, she bent over, and then pulled her bikini to the side, I drove out of there, and I was back in the metro station complex, I went up the escalator and I was in a big shopping center, and I had parked my Dad's car outside. I was with a friend inside to help me buy some things. I bought a huge newprint sketchbook, a bunch of cds, one of which was public enemy, among the things I was carrying were some presents from my mom. Before I went shopping I smoked a joint outside with some random people, I looked totally hip hop, with my hat backwards, and huge jeans. Somebody asked of I knew jeremiah the gypsy who writes for Think again magazine, I said I did know him, because I had just met him inside. I was playing a gig that night, and I wasn't sure what I was going to do. I saw my old grade school friend Justin, and I yelled his name, and this other old woman came when I called his name, she had a bunch of huge safety pins going through her cheek. I was trying to carry all the stuff that I bought, but I was unable to because the cds kept falling all over the place. the guy at the counter, said I looked like a pothead, and he warned me that there would be a draft coming soon, I was with my friend gary, and I said that were were both too old to be drafted. I made one trip to my car, taking an amplifier, and I had a canvas strapped to the top of the car, but the cavas was all screwed up, I cleaned up a space for the other stuff, and put some things inside, then I went back to the checkout, I tried again to carry everything but I was unable to, there was candy falling all over the floor, everytime I tried to pick up all the stuff. there was a large line forming, and people were getting angry that I was so slow.so i finally asked if I could get a big bag, the guy at the counter said ok, and left.
[Apr. 4th, 200511:58 am]
I was in Iraq, and trudging through the sand. I began to realise I was in the wrong place. I bought a ticket for 130 dollars at this small stand, and I was carrying a small yellow bag. My ticket was inside the bag, but then I realised I could not find the bag. I started freaking out, because I didn't want to be there anymore. I frantically began searching for it to no avail. Finally I found it, and when I got to the airport I was walking down these stairs, and I saw Pavla, but I called her Klaro, she was just like "who's Klara?" I wanted to sit by her on the plane, but she didn't recognise me, so I was kind of sad.I was at my grandmothers house, and there were a bunch of people there. I was wearing my hat kind of sideways and trying to act cool. My uncle cody's truck started rolling down the hill, and he ran outside to stop it. I really wanted to speak czech with my grandmother, but I couldn't figure a way to work it into the conversation, because after I started speaking czech I knew everyone would be amazed that I could speak it, and then I would be on display for all to listen to, so I wanted to wait for a private moment. I went into the kitchen, and there was a whole team of bakers baking in there, I was standing next to this large machine that spun this one large piece that slowly made whipped cream. An old woman was kind of splattering me with the cream. my grandmother gave me a plate of food, and I said Dik, at first she thought someone else said it, and I had just said Dick, but then she asked, what's that mean, and I said thank you, and she was happy. She also was giving my brother a painting of a naked woman to my brother, and he was a little hesitant about taking it. But then he pointed out that he dosn't have a lot of space to hang paintings in his room. again I was flying back home, but I couldn't find my passport, and this freaked me out.
[Apr. 3rd, 200501:25 pm]
There was gay days at the capital in bismarck, complete with a giant rainbow flag, I wanted to go somewhere, but I ended up going to the opposite side of town, waiting for a tram to come. I was by the other side of te capital. I had slept in for school, and I had to get some computer pass, but the computer wasn't working properly. They were worried that I had missed too many days of school. I planted some herb in a hole I cut in a sofa cushion, I was worried that my parents would find it so I turned the cushion over, then I covered it with a blanket, and then I put the seedlings underneath the couch, In four hours one had grown like four feet, I called up my friend guy to sell it to him, and he wouldn't take it either. I was in a pool, and there was a tornado in the pool, people said it was a scientific miracle, but the top of the funnel of the tornado was created because everywhere else there was ice, I was not drowning, I could breathe fine even though I was underwater, then the top of the funnel closed with more ice.
[Mar. 31st, 200512:59 pm]
I was again in Devin's old house by the post office. It had been converted into a band practice space, and Austin was there. I was happy that I could be really loud there. It turned into a bar atmosphere, and there was a fight, it was the sound guy from M1, and Chrissy was beating him up, I was too scared to become involved in the fight. There was a bathroom in the back that was kind of secret, I went there to take a shit, but the toilet was just a bucket, I tried to go but I couldn't, then the door was kind of coming open so you could see inside, my friend gary was outside. I moved the entire toilet back, and got some shit on my hands, my friend jussi was telling me that I should be careflul about getting diseases, I wanted to wash my hands, but he just kept on talking, so i didn't.There were also a lot of drunk czechs on the other side of this chain link fence, I wanted to touch them through the fecnce, but I was in a car, I began to think about what it s like to have a relationship through a fence, but the fence I was thinking about could bend really softly with the touch.
[Mar. 30th, 200512:03 pm]
There was some sort of paid orgy, that I paid to e a part of. I was about to have sex with one of the girls, then I thought I d better get a condom. Then, I ended up not having sex with anyone, and I wanted m money back. Then I fell in love with the girl that I almost had sex with. She was on the cover of magazines, and was super pretty. we were in my front yard for a while. I was trying to jump from a ship to another ship that was going to the US, but I was scared they'd check my passport.
[Mar. 29th, 200510:30 am]
I had to write some sort of essay in order to finish school. It was the last one I d ever have to write. reminded me of my winter term in chicago. I went to a bank because a nice girl was going to give me some money for something. I was supposed to put my password on this little sheet of paper with the date, but then they told me not to, suddenly the girl I was with was strapped to this table with her ass showing, and the bank directors started whipping her. I asked the employees where their headquaters was, and whether or not it was in America, they said it was in tallahasee, I told them I was going to call the people of talahasee and tell them that they whipped and crucified women, when I said this one woman said Jezis Maria, and I replied "exactly". I then had a chance to whip the girl as well, and it was kind of fun, but I was just smacking the table by her ass to make it look like I was hitting her. An old man who may have been my teacher was pretty beaten up, we all took a photo together on a bed with a LOMO, he was missing teeth.
[Mar. 28th, 200501:25 pm]
It was all happening in a set like my farm. I was running around shooting a lot of different types of guns. I had a big pistol called cracker jack, it took very strange bullets. A man was trying to kill my friend richard. I saw him from the outside of the garage door. I tried to shoot him, and even though his back was turned I just couldn't hit him. I kept firing at him, none of my bullets hit. I ran into my grandmothers house, and I took off the screen, but it was too small for me to get out of, so I had to take off a second screen, at that point I heard the front door open, and knew it must be the people who were trying to shoot me, I jumped from the window.2nd partI was working for some sort of dock company at my farm. My friend dean was inside my great grandmothers house, naked, doing some sort of stand up act. He had an art name for himself. The house had been remade very nicely. I said I wanted to live there, and my uncle said that would be fine. There was a beautiful room at the top of the house, with a wide view out onto the prarie. The sun was about to set, and it was very beautiful. I had to go and get all these long planks of wood from beside the shop. on one long piece I found an old birthday card for me, with 10 thousand krowns in it, i was really happy and amazed that I would be able to pay my next months rent by myself. my brother couldn't believe it, what started out as a rap competition turned into a made for tv infomercial about trying to sell a grill.
[Mar. 27th, 200501:02 pm]
I was the back of this car and this woman kept finding tarantulas everywhere. I wanted out of the car, and they finally let me out. Devin and a bunch of my friends were living in this big apartment block. on the top floor. the landlord was coming around to make sure that everyones flat was ok. Devin had a bunch of crusty punks in his flat, and a bunch of college girls in their underwear. the landlord came and everything was fine. Delaney was there, and she wanted me to sleep in her bed with her, so i did, she had this telephone that looked like a childrens toy, but it could call, it called my moms office. There were all these big tarantulas that I had to stick with pins onto a big board, they really grossed me out. I had a big nail and I jammed it into the abdomen of this shiny black one, when I pulled out the nail it was covered in all this goop.
[Mar. 26th, 200503:01 am]
I was back in high school, and there was some sort of competition going on. My sister was mad that I hadn't bought a good enough present for my mom. I told her that I had bought a candle, but my mom told me to burn it during a dinner the entire family had together. I was in a large room with many students seated in a circle. When my sister was in the room she asked if we should speak in czezch, i replied (in czech) that nobody here understands czech. Then everyone started speaking to her in czech. I found my dugout ammongst some houseplants. Suddenly I was in the competition for American Idol, and the girl who went before me was having back problems so I was giving her a massage, but her back was totally fucked up, and cracking like crazy. I was cracking on the steps and people were trying to come down, these two little girls asked if we were having sex. A red headed guy was really annoying, and singing a really stupid song.
[Mar. 23rd, 200501:34 pm]
I was in a house watching a movie with my ex girlfriend Andrea. The movie was so scary that I didn't thinkI d be able to sleep if I watched it. there was a psychotic girl with grey skin, and red eyes with us. She was a demon of some sort. I tried to restrain her at one point, holding her arms down, but she was too strong. She grabbed Andrea's glasses, and as she smashed them I awoke snorting loudly.
[Mar. 22nd, 200510:59 am]
March 13thI was walking about a block from the house where I grew up, I discovered that my friend Jon's houe was where they filmed the simpsons. As I was walking by I saw Jon walking into his house, I asked him if I could come in with him. He seemed reluctant, but allowed me in, Andrea appeared as I walking inside, and once inside there was some sort of a politcal group of people, but then they all vanished, Jons mom was making a ton of waffles, ANdrea and I ate them up, this infuriated Jon's mom. SHe started yelling at Andrea, and andrea yelled back that jons mom needed to start taking her medication again. we left, maybe without shoes. Andrea then vanished once I got outside, as I was walking by, it was almost if I was walking through a tiny diarama, and then the huge house next door had all glass windows, and there were a lot of people inside, as if there was a cafe there or something, and working at the cafe was may old girlfriend Lynn. I was trying to get her attention throough the window, but she didn't pay any attention to me, just kind of kept going on as if she couldn't have to the time to be seen with me aorund all these important people. So I walked back home, alone. It was spring outside.
[Mar. 22nd, 200510:54 am]
I was throwing a hockey puck at these guys as hard as I could. Walked into McDonalds, there was chocolate shake splattered all over the place. There wasn't anywhere to put a tray, so I had to set it in this junk heap. Someone yelled at me for it. There was a revolution, and people fighting the cops in the streets, the cops threw a molotov cocktail into a group that had sat down. All the people in the cars were smiling. It was a fun riot, like a video game.
[Mar. 15th, 200511:00 am]
March 15thThere was a large device, maybe some sort of nuclear machine that ran the trains in the metro. When the metro would come it would spin in all these giant spirals. There was a warning sign that said that you could get a spinal cancer from it. When the tram came it was so loud that I couldn't board the train. I began falling down this huge flight of steps, and my father asked me who I would rather talk to, a kitten, or philip glass. Philip Glass showed up, and my dad was trying to speak french to him which made me embarassed because of his terrible accent.I was in a house that was really Delaneys, I was sleeping in her bed, and she was startled to find me there. When she came home I asked her if I could sleep there, and she said that was ok, then I asked her if I could sleep in her bed with her, and she said that that would be fine too. I then walked outside, it was beginning to be dark outside, there was a television show of a a woman who sewed her mouth closed, and an asian man who sewed his mouth and took the string up through the top of his eyelid. I decided to do this, it didn't hurt, and when I looked in the mirror I looked deformed, I concluded that this is why people did this, there was also large leather thread going through my cheek.I was underneath a large overpass with my friend Dennison. there was a big storm coming in, and we sought refuge underneath. Dennison jumped from a small cliff, and it was higher than he had expected so he kind of staggered away. The train station was for trains to Canada. At the bottom I saw Jana and I began to talk to her, her boyfriend was with her, and he looked like an idiot. Jana's boyfriends friend showed up, and started acting as if he was having sex with me and dennison. During the fake sex acts Jana fell to the ground, and said "co mam Delat" which means what can I do.
[Mar. 14th, 200502:23 pm]
I was in a classroom and I was doing something for class. i was the only person that finished the assignment on time, there were two questions that needed to be answered. One was about the history of the czech republic, the other I can't remember. Once I finished my assignment I had a huge bunch of papers, and when it was time to hand it in, I was dismayed to find out that not only could I not find the assignment, but now, I was the only student in the class that didn't have the homework. I did however find two dollars amongst my huge pile of paper.
[Mar. 12th, 200501:26 pm]
I was in a house with a bunch of people that I didn't know. The television was keeping everybody up, and they seemed to be getting annoyed with me. I had to sleep on this fold out bed thing that i used to sleep on when I was little. It very well could have been the house across from the federal building that I used to live in.
[Mar. 8th, 200502:48 pm]
I was on a train going through some exotic land. I thought to myself that this was really real for a video game. I met this girl who was still a virgin, and she wanted me to fuck her. I slid my finger into her, and broke her hymen. "wow, this feels real" I thought to myself. We got off the train and walked around an area about the size of a map from a video game looking for somewhere to fuck. there was nowhere. the Sri Lankan army was marching everywhere, and even though they weren't necessarily trying to catch us, we were still unable to find a place alone where we could have sex.
[Mar. 2nd, 200510:49 am]
I was walking through Wnceslas Square when a woman aproached me asking for something. I changed my course and began walking up the square towards the horse to get away from her. I was with another girl who started running away from her. I asked her "Co Potrebujes" (what do you want) and while she was talking to me she put her hand into my pocket and stole my wallet. I saw her do it, and she knew that I saw, but she just kind of stood there, there was an accomplice with her now. I took her accomplices purse strap and strangled her with it. then all of a sudden I was in a sort of mini-mall at the Mustek metro station with Terezka, and she wanted to break up with me, I replied to her "oh so you mean you found another guy, and want to try him out, tell me his name, who else are you dating now?" she replied, but I couldnt hear the name that she said, but I understood it to be one of my good friends. I got really pissed off, and started calling her a lying whore, bitch, and every other derogatory name I could think of. she just stood there smiling as I yelled at her. A crowd had gathered around us because I was yelling, and Snoop Dog and antoher black guy showed up trying to defend her. During the process some ketchup started flying everywhere and got on her clothes and mine. I lost my bag, my phone and my wallet. I walked to the lost and found to try and retrieve my items, my backpack, and my phone were lying on the other side of this fence, and as the guy was handing me my phone it dropped, and broke into pieces, he reassembled the phone and gave it back to me. Then I had to do some sort of paperwork to prove that I was really me, and to make a record that I had been there to pick up the stuff. while I was doing the paperwork there was this older guy with blonde wiry hair that started asking me what I did for a living. I told him that I was a painter, and he started laughing at me, telling me what I was doing really wasn't work, I then got angry and told him that I hadn't had a normal job in 3 years, and had lived solely off of my artwork, he just kept laughing, I told him if he didn't stop laughing I would punch his face in, he didn't stop so I lunged at him, my leg kicked (in reality) at this point, and the intensity of the scene woke me up.
[Mar. 1st, 200511:27 am]
There was a crowd of people, mostly young people and there was some kind of performance going on on the top floor of some building, I went up the excalators up to the very top, but had to be shy about being caught by the police, performing there was a czech kid who could beat box really well, he said that I was on the guest list because I gave him inspiration. his show was great, and he made all these totally insane sounds with his voice. we went down the escalators to the next floor where there were a group of my friends watching a video of my life, then suddenly the tape cut to a surveillance style footage of me in some kind of orgy at the Lyme Academy of fine arts. I was with one of my exgirlfriends, but on the tape it wasnt me, i kept trying to rewind the tape and pause it, to prove it wasnt me in the tape, but no one believed me. Then I was at my grandmother Frantiska's house, there was faulty wiring there, and a fire started so I ran up the steps to yell "Fire! Fire" to my grandmother, when she got downstairs the fire had gone out, but her house was filled with drunken teenagers, she didnt seem to care much about the fire, telling me that I had to learn how to warm up the electronic devices, and set it to a higher watt output setting when I plugged in loarger appliances, she kept it on the lower watt setting because this saved money. then we started speaking in czech together. I said that "Rozumim cesky" and she was happy, and I was excited to talk with her in czech. My friend Daniel gave me an adidas jacket that was really nice. I got back together with my girlfriend Lynn, and it was so nice to kiss her again. we just cuddled a lot, and talked about how much we missed each other.
[Feb. 28th, 200510:25 am]
There were tests at school. The school was located around the corner on third street in my home town. Madonna was there. she was worried about being on live television, and was scerwing up her lines. I was a hockey master, I was amazed at how well I could play hockey because I thought I couldn't even skate that well. There seemed to be a big game coming up, but there wasn't anyone really in the audience.
[Feb. 27th, 200501:12 pm]
I was at a large orgy, but as a spectator in the stands. some people in the crowd wanted to have sex with me, but I said no. my phone kept ringing. after a while there were all these topless black women, getting fucked by michael jackson.the room was more like a theatre now. I took three other people with me there. was it the end of the school year?, these two girls wanted to leave the classroom.
[Feb. 26th, 200506:51 pm]
I was making out with Klara on a bed, underneath the covers. I was trying to get down her pants, but she wouldn't let me. She seemed to be in love with me, and started crying about something. My brother came into the room, and was acting really out of character. being very loud.An aquarium on my front porch contained a large salamander. it was so huge, but totally dead. reminded of the frog I had when i was a teenager that died. I poured water on it, and it came back to life, kind of swelling up first before becoming engorged with water, and beginning to come fully back to life. also a snake was there that went through the same process.My grandfather was alive and well when we were at the farm, he was speaking loudly, and may have had a lasoo in his hands. I was happy to see him, may have been a sort of family reunion taking place.
|posted by Jeremiah Palecek @ 1:18 PM